ask to receive

I know I haven't posted anything since I finished the "20 things I know about diabetes" project. I keep thinking I should but I don't know what to say. I feel cleaned out. Light hearted. A bit empty since I did the project. It's not like there is nothing to talk about but I just feel talked out right now. And sometimes, diabetes just isn't in the forefront of my mind. Sometimes it recedes and becomes a quieter background noise, rather than a demanding thing. It is good at these times.

I sent the thank-you notes to the people who I was most grateful to these last 20 years. It was kind of amazing how everyone responded. People noticed. They congratulated me and sent flowers which they know I love. By making this milestone visible to people, it became what I'd hoped it would, which was real. I have learned an important lesson in all this; that it is important to ask for what you need sometimes. It's kind of awkward but it's ok too. And frankly, the people who care are really grateful for the clues because they don't always know how to act either. Anyway, it's been a good way to mark the date. I guess it's time now to just go read a good book for a while...