One of the upsides the "light of day" approach to seeing diabetes affords, is the ability to recognize all the extra effort, courage and attention it takes to live. And let it count for something. If you think of it this way, every person is dealt a "hand of cards" in life (sorry about the hokey metaphor), and everyone with diabetes has been given an extra card to manage. Our hand is a little fuller than others. Most people get the "need to work/career card" and the "relationship/spouse/partner card" and the "family/parents/siblings/children card" and the "I'm so busy/time overload card". But beyond those basics, there are lot's of things that everyone thinks they have to deal with, but maybe they really don't. You know, stuff. Extra, tedious stuff, that we do because we think we have to, because everybody has to deal with some crap afterall, right?
I've been thinking lately, that maybe the fact that I have the extra job of diabetes, means that it's ok to pass on some of the stuff I have a choice about. Life is pretty challenging with diabetes (see Scott's articulate recent post) so maybe it's ok to say, "nope, I'm sorry, I'll pass on that". Or conversely, say yes to the things that bring me more joy, today, in the present. I don't mean in a prima donna, "I'm feeling sorry for myself" kind of way. I mean in the way that acknowledges what I do every day to stay healthy and engaged and contributing and connected. It's about seeing having a chronic illness as "more" rather than "less than". Because, well, all the work to do it well counts for something. Since I got the extra diabetes card, it might be a good idea to give myself permission to let go of an extraneous one. It's an interesting thought. What are the things I can let go of? What are the cards can I discard?
(And I promise to never, ever, use the lame card metaphor again. Ever.)