Well it's getting close to the middle of my sabbatical and yes, I'm feeling significantly more relaxed. I had no idea how tired I really was, how wound up I am for the daily work adventure, how much I still needed to recover from my shoulder surgery from last spring. It has been wonderful and surprising. Quiet and unrushed as the day unfolds. The day unfolds. I haven't known what that felt like for literally decades. It's quite a remarkable thing!
But. But, the slowed pace seems to be impacting my bloodsugars. It started late last week and I'm thinking I'm seeing a trend. I'm having more lows, during the day and at night. I'm thinking it's because I am less "stressed" and more relaxed and so it's taking less insulin to do what my body needs it to do. I'm trying not to get bummed or distracted by this. I'll take more blood tests to see if in fact, it is a trend. Plus with the pump, the good news is, it's pretty easy to tweak as subtly as needed.
Hm, and while we're on the subject of "trends in bloodsugars", I'm seeing my fabulous nurse at the clinic today, to talk about possibly trying one of the new glucose monitoring sensors. Which might really be the ticket for a situation like this. Changing routine, more information. Sounds good. I've been encouraged by diabetes mine's experience with the DexCom and that of the others who have commented on her posts. It sounds great, and who doesn't want more accurate data about trends in bloodsugars? It will be easier to sync up insulin to my bodies needs plus I'll be able to catch highs and lows before they get too high or low. I know a will want to go on one of the sensor's out there. I'm just not sure when.
I'm torn. I feel a bit sad about having to learn another new technology, especially on my vacation. Funny, but even as I write this, I realize that my grumpiness is really that my vacation isn't also a vacation from diabetes too. A vacation from all the jobs in my life. I'm sorry to be such a whiner, but I guess I'd hoped (deep in the irrational brain) that this time, I'd get a vacation from diabetes too. Kind of silly, really.
Postscript. I checked out the sensor at the clinic today and though it is amazing and I'm definitely going to get one, I've decided to wait until after the vacation. Pace my dear. Take a few more blood tests, pull back on the insulin. Pass the cold, fizzy water please. There is plenty of time to reach the next technological level. For now, I'm going with the flow. The vacation flow...