I have to move my insertion sites and I'm not very happy about it. I've been using the same general area for a long time. Moving them from one side to the other. But I know that it is time to find some fresh sites so I can give this area a rest. My stomach might be an option though the few times I've tried it there, it's been uncomfortable. Maybe I need to get one of the catheters that inserts at an angle. Before, when I've tried it in my stomach with the straight catheter, I've felt the tip of it against my muscle wall and that's felt pretty icky. Or maybe it's smart to start with the legs next. I've never done it there before. I wonder what that will feel like? Can't wait to find out, not.
Suffice it to say that I am feeling momentarily resentful about having to figure out a new place for my sites. I resent the inevitable figuring out of the clothes, the mechanics of the tubing, the unknown reality of everyday movement with new sites. I don't want to have to learn new tricks. I admit it. I don't want to have to be aware, take mental notes, adjust something that has worked just fine for years. It's like starting back at square 1 and I hate that feeling. I hate feeling clumsy and out of control with the mechanics of my diabetes, even if it's only temporarily. "Out of control" bloodsugars are one thing. "Out of control", learning curve mode, well that's another. And it's not my favorite place to be. But I have to go there. It's time. Deep breath. Here I go.