Last night I had dinner at a friends. I checked my bloodsugar. 120. Fine. I took a small bolus to cover the glass of wine I was having. Fine. Dinner was coming so I figured out the amount for my bolus to cover dinner. Fine. I ate dinner, yum, yum. Got home around 9:00. Checked my bloodsugar. 340! NOT FINE. What's up with that? I checked my bolus history. No dinner bolus. I must have not delivered the bolus I had figured out for dinner. Got distracted. Whatever. No insulin, crazy bloodsugar. So I took some more insulin and was fine.
There are the times that you don't know what is going on with your bloodsugars. You're doing it right but it doesn't work out. Frustrating, maddening, demoralizing.
And then there are the times that you just screw up. Regular human stuff. Distraction, assumption that you've done it this time because you've done it so many times before, simple forgetfulness. Wow. After 20 years I'm still blown away by how easy it is to screw up with this disease. One mistep and there you have it: a 340 bloodsugar. Luckily, it's easy to fix but still it's amazing to me. Human error. Oops. Yet another thing to juggle and manage with diabetes.