balancing on and off.

I've been feeling surprisingly good since my surgery (so much better than the shoulder hell) but still, I think I've overdone a bit. I feel really tired today so I'm doing nothing. A blog here and there, some mags, napping, more Grey's Anatomy. That's about it. I don't understand my drive to always want to do, especially when I'm sick or recovering from something like surgery. I've always had it, ever since I was a kid when a sick day meant falling behind or missing the action. I always hated that. And since I got diabetes, that personality trait has overlaid with my desire to not have the disease limit my life. So I rarely take a sick day or let diabetes be the reason for not performing at the highest level I can. I don't want to slow down, even when I'm tired or recovering or sick. Kind of silly really, but understandable too.

But I'm getting better at taking time outs and balancing lately. Recognizing when I need to. I'm learning that everyone needs to take a break. It's like I've expected more from myself than I do from others, because I have diabetes. But I'm realizing that it doesn't make sense. Time out is good, even when I'm not dealing with something medical or physical. It's better in the long run. I took my sabbatical this year and it was wonderful. I'm stopping today, where as before, I might have kept pushing. That's progress and I want next year to be about balancing on and off. It's a goal. A new year's resolution. More balance. Time off when it makes sense. Time out to listen. Time for time. To think and breath and restore.

Sounds like just what the doctor ordered (as well as Ruppert too)!

Comments

[Scott K. Johnson]

Oh boy does Ruppert look comfy!

[carol]

What a great post and a wonderful resolution! In our world of "go, go" and "push yourself to the limits" + trying to overcome the stigma of diabetes, it's no wonder we sometimes push harder than we should. Can I claim your resolution too?

[InSearchOfBalance]

Is that your dog? Because that looks like an awesome dog! :)

I absolutely agree with Scott. I think slowing down is more important for diabetics than others, and yet, it seems I am less able to do so than others! What a great reminder to just stop for a while.