It's important to get a better picture of the situation. It helps me. It helps me to see diabetes, through pictures or words or metaphors. For whatever reason, once I have a better view, I can move forward. Because that's what this exercise is all about. Moving to a better place where possible. I don't have a choice about having diabetes, so what other parts of my life do I have choices about?
My recent post piece of the pie helped me to see diabetes in a way that really makes sense to me. The day is finite, diabetes is a constant that gets bigger sometimes, and is always a slice, regardless. True. And it's helpful to me in understanding why I feel overwhelmed sometimes, or resentful, or just plain tired. Good to know and see. I know that I don't have control over the presence of diabetes, but I do have control over other pieces of the pie. If diabetes is always there, I think that I need to carve out another slice and make it permenant too. A little slice of heaven. The anti-diabetes piece. The friend of diabetes. The ying to it's yang.
So that's my new year's resolution. This year is going to be about exploring what my little slice of heaven is all about. I know some of the things that populate it. Like Flora and Ruppert my dogs. Pearl, my cat. Gardening. My husband and friends. Those things I know. But still, I want to get a little more active about this idea. Broaden the appeture. Try some new stuff. I'm dedicated to my diabetes, so I should be dedicated to this slice of pie just as much. It's not extra. It's a given, just like diabetes. More joy. More play. More fun. You know, my own little slice of heaven.
Now that picture makes a little more sense to me.