I feel different from other people. Partly of course, because I'm a separate individual. But partly too because of my diabetes. After 20 years of having it, I think that what used to be a small difference now feels like a much bigger one. When I first got diagnosed, I still felt like a non-chronically ill person who now had to do a bunch of new, strange stuff that I didn't have to do before. I definitely felt different once diagnosed, but still not so different from others, because I still kind of felt more like them than me "as a diabetic". But now what started out as 1 degree of separation has become a wider gap, simply because of all the time that has passed. I'm still me, but I'm the diabetic me now. Not just the diabetic me, but never not her either. Every meal, every event, every party, every trip, I am reminded of how different I actually am from everyone else around me. It's like there was a fork in the road 20 years ago and where in the beginning, I could still see the other path from where I was, now it's very hard to make it out at all. Where I walk now, I have to keep my eyes in front of me to avoid tripping and falling over stuff that my friends and other people just never have to consider. Which in the end, adds up to me feeling very different from almost everyone I know.