The past few days have been much better. No more rocking and rolling blood sugars. Well, not at least until yesterday. And really, there's no one to blame for that, but myself. I got sloppy about eating at the regular time. I get silly about what I chose to eat. I went low. And then, like an even sillier girl, I said "let's go out to dinner honey." I tested at the restuarant and discovered that I was high because I'd rebounded. I over compensated on the high and go low again a couple of hours later. And then, surprise of surpises, I rebound in the night, again. I'm up twice, bolusing. And as a result I'm very tired today. Again. But this time I'm not so sick and tired as much as feelng a bit full on humble pie. I wish I could say that I don't know why last night happened, but that's not the case. I made some imperfect choices and I paid. I'm not going to beat myself up for it, but I'm also not going to act like it's a big surprise. I wish it were different and I wish "paying" wasn't so rough. But after 20 years, I do know that diabetes isn't open to negotiation. It's not like it's going to give me a break just this once..
So in the absence of any excuses and in light of how tired I'm feeling I guess the only thing left to do is...think about puppies. Hey, I'm up for any distraction at this point.