note to self.

Note to self. When your site starts to itch, even when it feels like it's just the adhesive part, change your set. Don't wait until the bitter end of your cartridge because you're too busy to change it. Change it, because you're starting to get an infection and that means your bloodsugars might go high. You know this. Don't fool yourself that something else is happening.

Note to self. Once you've changed out your site and your bloodsugars are high, don't blast an insulin bolus just to get your bloodsugar down. It will result in a low. Hello rollercoaster ride. It's happened before and you know it will happen again.

Note to self. When you finally do sit down for dinner at a local mexican restaurant, while you're waiting for your husband to arrive, don't eat the lovely, hot tortilla chips in the basket in front of you. Especially when you're bloodsugar is low and you're really hungry because you didn't eat much during the day to compensate for the rollercoaster highs. Don't keep eating the chips while you wait. Listen to that tiny voice in the back of your mind, the one you've almost drowned out by the crunchy deliciousness of those fresh, perfect, tasty chips you're shovelling in your mouth. You know you'll pay for those chips. You always do. Listen, listen, listen.

Note to self. Cause and effect is inevitable. 300's in the night, up twice, extra bolus', are not surprising. You aren't surprised. You made some errors in judgement. You fooled yourself that there would be different outcomes from your choices, this time. No, you aren't surprised. Just tired because you've been riding the rollercoaster for 24 hours. Just tired because you've been riding the rollercoaster for 21 years.

Note to self. Today's another day.

Comments

[Christine]

So true!

[Donna]

Your first Note To Self really hit home with me. I recently had an infection so bad that it required antibiotics & a drainage procedure (self-inflicted) to get rid of the infection. Believe me. I won't put off changing an itchy site again.

[Minnesota Nice]

I remember one time when I was going on a logchute ride at a amusement park. There were two people to a log, and my big sturdy nephew was in front of me. Each time we took a steep dive I pressed my face into his back to hide from the sensation.
With diabetes there is no one in the seat ahead of us to take the edge off. We are at the front, every day, each moment. And i don't like it either.
Hope you have a better week ahead, Birdie.

[Amylia]

Oh, Birdie, how I relate to this post. Why, why, why do I fool myself? I am a smart woman. I know what I am doing. 19 years is a long time to have diabetes. I know beter. But we all falter. We all make mistakes. Roller-coaster rides are not fun with glucose levels. I've been there. Heck, I'm there now.

Damn those Mexican chips get me, too!

[Jayne]

Great notes. I used to have a notebook, but have somehow lost it in the fog. But, fresh resolve is on the horizon. I feel a cool breeze coming. Thanks.

[Cara]

Oh, but yet we sometimes due what we know we shouldn't.... the desire to be "normal" takes over. And them we pay the consequences. :( Oh well, start over again tomorrow. Each day is a new day, and it happens to all of us. :)

[Drea]

I appreciate that every day is a new day!!!