Diabetes is many things. It is challenging, unrelenting, frustrating, scary and yes, even inspiring at times. Well, after 20 years of living with diabetes and all that it takes to do it "well", I'm here to say that diabetes is also BORING. Mind numbingly boring. Eat something and then deal. Take lots and lots of blood tests. Use the information you get, make the best judgement you can and then see what happens. And then repeat. Again and again and again.
And it's not like it's always going to turn out the same every time either, the cause and effect thing. One day you do something with one result, the next day the same thing, different result. You're definitely kept guessing with this disease even when living within a routine.
And it's also not that it isn't a serious thing. My late father was a doctor and he once told me about what it was like working in the emergency room of a hospital. He said that an emergency room shift was basically 99% boredom combined with 1% life or death drama. That's what diabetes feels like to me. Done right, it should be routine and uneventful because if it's done wrong, it can be very dangerous. Diabetes most certainly, is not a thing to be taken too lightly.
It's a balance. A balance between living a life with some spontaneity and adhering to the regimen that makes diabetes more predictable and safe. Before the pump, the unpredictability of my diabetes used to drive me crazy. My A1C's were good but the path to the average that those numbers represented, was very bumpy to say the least. The pump has helped significantly. Truly improved my life; really huge improvement; "You'd have to kill me to get it away from me" kind of improvement. And since I've been on the pump the "huh, why is this happening" phenomenon has been greatly reduced. Which means life is better overall and for that, I am very grateful. And I guess that's the point of life with diabetes (and with life in general); it's not perfect, so you make the best of it. Even if doing so bores the crap out of you sometimes.
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