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i always wonder about the chicken and the egg thing....would i live such a scheduled life if i wasn't diabetic? would i be more spontaneous, more adventureous, less anal, less focused on food, diet,and exercise? would i sleep late, go out to dinner and drink frozen drinks, would my relationships be different? would i leave the house without a heavy bag- full of skittles and test strips-....what would life be like without diabetes? how am i to know and sometimes it feels like a waste to wonder.

I think you have it in a nutshell when you say you are doing the best you can. For me, I need to carve out A LOT of space when I have several health issues. I just need to be alone and have some calm as either people just want to help, adding more noise to the issue, or they are chatting away about things I cannot concentrate on. There is only so much I can deal with, I am realising, and I need to give myself the space to deal with it and cut myself some slack when I need these down times.

I can completely relate. I am completely controlling with my diabetes, my life, the lives of those around me, my laundry, my work, EVERYTHING. I can NOT handle variance. It pisses me off. I can not handle other people having different expectations than I do. Bob and I STRUGGLE with my need to control. He calls me manipulative and controlling, I call myself organized and orderly, and I call him scattered and Unorganized. Where is the middle? It is funny that one of the hardest things I have had to learn in the relationships I have with my children is that they were really not put on this earth to do my bidding whenever I see fit. They are their own little people and sometimes my bidding just isn’t going to fit their needs. It all comes down to control. I TOTALLY get what you mean, although it probably fits into my life a little differently than it does you, I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN!

So well said.
When I was in the midst of my retinal problems, people were always commenting that I was "preoccupied"......DUH, I GUESS SO.
Additional health issues on top of the db are obnoxious beyond description.

Hope you're doing better.

I too hope that things are going Ok for you. Just know that we are all thinking of you and pulling for you.

I think we all need a little more "down time" when we have things going on - but then again, we have a lot more to deal wtih than the average "healthy person". And that is on top of whatever else life in general throws our way.

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